About a Billion Times

I've seriously started and erased this post about a billion times.  I've wanted to share so much and so many pictures, but every time there's a moment to start, there's no time to finish.  When there's time again what I've written is irrelevant and I need to start over...

Who would have known that this would be so difficult!?

We came home on Friday when Jenny Kate was a mere 26 hours old.  We were shocked but super excited to get home and be with our little man.  Unfortunately, Derrick was exhausted and so were we.  Justin walked into the living room to find all three of us in tears.  It was a pretty pathetic moment, I must say.

This nursing thing is making me lose my mind.  I'm trying but seriously, I'm not so sure I'm cut out for it.  We had a lactation consultant come out today and she was super helpful.  And then she left.   And then I started wondering again if I'm cut out for nursing.  Tomorrow may be the deciding day.

Derrick has been amazing.  He LOVES Jenny Kate.  He wants to hold her all of the time and if he's not holding her he wants to touch her.  Sometimes he says he's "petting" her.  I'm so glad he likes her so much (for now at least!).  That was one of my biggest concerns.  I want him to love her and not worry that she's taking over his space, attention, and love.  We're trying hard to have special time just for him and he seems ok with everything.  The boy's a trooper.  I sure do love him!

That's kind of where we are right now.  Loving these babies, trying to keep them both happy, and trying to get into some sort of routine before Justin has to go back to work in a few days.  Oh, I'm so not ready for that!



  1. Beautiful family, and what a sweet big brother!

    Hang in there mommy, it will take a while and then things will fall into place. It's not easy going from a mommy of one to two. Get some rest when you can, it'll make things a bit easier on you!

  2. Congratulations again! She is BEAUTIFUL!!! And yes, the transition from 1 to 2 is ROUGH. I had a really hard time - I honestly don't think I settled into it until Bodie was 7 or 8 months old (but, I hear from my friends of healthy kids that it doesn't take that long when #2 is healthy - maybe a couple of months and then it'll be smooth sailing). Oh, and yes, then nursing can be tough at first. But just hang in there. It does get better, I promise! Sierra and I had a really rough start to nursing and I almost quit several times, but if you can hang in there, once you turn the corner (I think that's around 3-4 weeks for most moms, but for me it was a bit longer), all of the sudden you'll realize "oh my gosh, this is SO easy and SO great!" Seriously, a nursing relationship is like nothing else. I ended up nursing Sierra until she self-weaned just past 2 years old. it was the most incredible relationship. One of my big sadnesses was not being able to nurse Bodie. So, hang in there mama - it will totally be worth it!!!

  3. Ahhh, I was so hoping having two at home would be magically easy for you!!! I'm sure you remember some of my blogs of desperation and saying it's just not possible to have two under two (I know D is just over 2)...

    It started getting easier at around 3.5 months for me. Mason had developed a bit of a schedule and I felt like I was actually parenting instead of just being in "survival mode".

    Nursing: Nursing is horrible for the first 6 weeks. There's latch issues, lots of pain. I'm talking I had to bite down on a rag-type-pain. However, between 6 and 8 weeks things got soooo much better. After you get over the hard-hump, nursing is WAY easier than bottle feeding. You will be able to soothe your baby no matter what, you don't have to pack a million bottles and formula containers to go someplace. You won't deal with all the newborn tummy issues that comes with formula feeding.

    Hugs, momma! I cried several times when I first had my two home alone.

  4. Oh Shannon. {{{HUG}}} Going from mommy of one to mommy of two is a bit of a transition. Wyatt was almost four when Logan came along which is a perfect age but we still had our moments. I am sure having two and D being two makes it a bit tough since two year olds are a bit busier. Hang in there girl. It WILL get better and much easier once you get past the first few weeks. Like everyone says things will fall into place and you will get settled into your new routine.

  5. We had the same struggle when we brought Nate home - Josh kinda fell apart after being the grandparents plus sporting double ear infections. BUT it will get easier -and you will find the schedule that works for you. I promise it gets easier :-)

  6. What a beautiful family! Congratulations to all of you! And Shannon...hang in there...I promise it gets easier...all of it :)

    Kati, Rocky, Evan & Brycen

  7. Many, many congratulations to all!! Jenny Kate is such a beautiful little girl and I'm thrilled to hear that Derrick is so taken with her. When my sister was born, my brother kept asking my mom, "Is that baby still here?"

    Much, much love to you all!!