I have to admit, this whole two-baby-thing is much tougher than I imagined it would be!
I've forgotten how difficult it is to function on 3 1/2 hours of sleep.
I had no idea what it was like for a baby to actually want to eat. This girl goes from sleeping to screaming in a tenth of a second. And she's NOT patient while you're getting her bottle! That should have been done ten minutes ago in her mind. :)
I never thought about how difficult it may be to try to go somewhere alone. Somewhere as simple as the post office. I had to mail a BraveHEART Basket today. The boxes we mail them in are kind of large. I thought the drive-thru post office was closed (because I wasn't going down the street far enough, duh!) and couldn't figure out how on earth I was going to mail this box and take both of the kids inside the post office with me. I'll admit, I had a mini-meltdown in the car, then I told D we were going home to get his shoes (yes, I took him without shoes because we weren't getting out of the car!) and then going to the post office. I told him he had to be a big boy and walk inside
holding on to helping me "carry" Jenny Kate's car seat. I figured it would end in sweat and tears but I was pleasantly surprised. Derrick walked like a big boy and other than a few pitiful looks from strangers...their eyes saying, "Bless your heart," we made it. I have a teensy bit more confidence that I can do this. I think I can, I think I can!
I didn't realize how much I was used to going out doing whatever I wanted to do. I miss heading to Target just to browse around! Life with one child was easy...two, not so much. Not yet anyway. I know it will get easier and to speed things up, I'm going to learn how to use this Moby wrap that my friend Neysa sent me. Putting two kids in the cart doesn't leave any room for the fun part of Target (or the grocery store)! I will conquer this. I will.
I have no idea how people with three and four children young children function. Especially if they don't look like walking zombies. The other night we were at the zoo (more on that soon) with Derrick. We walked by a lady and she looked at D, smiled at me, and said, "You look tired!" Seriously?! Thanks lady.
I know things will get easier. I know this is just a season and that before long I'll look back at think, how did my babies grow up so quickly? I'm enjoying it, I really am. And I wouldn't trade a single minute for anything. Even an extra hour of sleep!
|Yes, I need to clean my oven door and my child, but I thought this face was too cute not to share!|
And this one too! :)